When the Mood Strikes

I started a regimen of walking and running every day up in the mountains by my job everyday for the past 3 weeks (hooray - this is a big deal in my world especially when it comes to running). Sure I practice self care in other ways but when it came to my health I’ve always put the physical excercise in the back burner, relegated to working out only when I travel or I’ll get to it when I have time. What does that even mean? That’s all we’ve got is time which is not that long.

My aunts health situation was the straw that broke the camels back for me. I had to be real with myself because if someone asked: Did you do everything in your power to take care of yourself and your health? I didn’t want to be the person that said no or make up any excuses of why I tried and couldn’t. I realized in this process that one of the most difficult things in the world is to look at anything simply. Because our minds are very complex, we have lost the quality of simplicity... the simplicity that can look directly at things without fear- that can look at ourselves as we actually are without any distortion- but rather following with an intention to understand- a very difficult thing to do because most of us don't know how to look at, or listen to, our own being any more than we know how to look at the beauty of a river or listen to the breeze among the trees. So I’ve vowed to keep running not when the mood strikes me - but everyday so long as I am alive!